Monday, December 27, 2010

Rooted to the ground

Clarity

Two nights ago I had a great talk. It was good for me because I had let my mind go autopilot and stagnant for so long. I feel as if I have a new direction now, or a start of something better.

I've also had more urge to draw now which is also good because I haven't doodled for so long. I'm easily inspired, easily discouraged, easily pleased, easily disappointed... so at least right now I'm in a more positive mode of mind.

Here's hoping for a better year for all in the coming 2011!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Either/or

Been offered an ultimatum from my mother. She's so absurd sometimes that I wonder if I'm just dreaming or stuck in some weird parallel universe where bad drama tropes are used.

She just told my sister that she can't date until I do. Now my sister is both horrified and amused and is now in search of someone for me to the glee of both my parents.

I didn't know my father worried about me too.

Now I'm even more determined to die single just to be rebellious. It's annoying to have potential suitors brought up all the time and asked why I don't socialize or don't act a certain way.

Don't they understand the idea of introverts?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Saturday, December 18, 2010

If today had a colour it would be purple

New favourite words: adroit and nuanced. I feel acknowledged and pleased with self. But a quiet repressed pleased, too afraid to show it in case the feelings go away or proven wrongly acknowledged.

It's a good day when your efforts and works are acknowledged. Must remember to do that for my future students.

*quietly giggles happily to self*

I solemnly swear I am up to no good

Today is a day for adventure. It feels like it with its edge of excitement and my readiness for mischief and spontaneity. The feeling of nothing-can-go-wrong and I-can-dare-if-I-try. This is a day for bad ideas that can turn right, a day for trying new things because it can only turn out well. It's not a day for doing nothing or sitting around or wondering what to do.

But I think that's going to be what I'm doing anyway. Sad.

My body is tense with anticipation. What a sad waste of energy today is. If potions could be made from attitudes and emotions I would bottle this up for another day when I find a friend to make mischief with. Anyway, I'm sure my-not-doing-anythingness will make me lethargic and lazy soon.

Omg, my TA is awesome! I love my TA!!

Day of celebration I tell you! I just unfortunately have no one to celebrate with. Aaaaack! It's kinda killing me inside. I need to quickly waste energy so I feel as if I did something. Blaaah.

Cat-ish

Gosh, I feel so pleased with myself. I feel like I just ate a canary. You know, like the saying: the cat that ate a canary? Anyway, this one essay mark makes up for my all my past recent failings. I feel reanimated and encouraged! I'm so glad that I can gleefully giggle out loud on the bus. In fact, I'm pretty sure my glee is rolling off me in waves which is appropriate since I'm listening to the Glee soundtrack.

Really hungry right now though. Baah! Nothing can kill this happiness right now. :)


Friday, December 17, 2010

Ugh.

I feel so icky and sickly. I have a cough and stuffed nose, and I'm just feeling plain miserable. It's all the congestion and stuffiness that makes me feel as if I have a storm over my head and a mad scientist conducting a lightning experiment. Meh. Being sick also makes me want to do anything BUT study... which is troublesome since my exam is tomorrow.

I haven't even Christmas shopped yet! Uuugh. I want to crawl into bed and sleep the day away.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Gah!

I'm procrastinating again.  I have an exam coming up, and one that's actually fun to study but... I just. can't. do. it.

Why?

I'm so annoyed at my apathetic behaviour towards school lately. I just can't seem to do anything. It's starting to become painful how I'm wasting my time/my life doing nothing but sleeping or sitting around.

On another note, I want to watch "Flipped" so bad! I read the book back in High School and I loved it. It reminds me of "Stargirl" but I like "Flipped" better. The story is so sweet and innocent. It's just such a feel good book, and I think the movie actually does justice to the book. Anyhow, have to watch it first to pass judgement but... I'm kinda already biased. Oh well.

:)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010

NEW GOAL!


I want to learn how to felt. I NEED to learn how to felt. I will do it this Christmas. I WILL!

Then I will make more Owls, and I can make a family for MOSES!! :D


It's a HOOT!


And today I bought an owl keychain to make up for not being able to own an owl as a pet in Canada. This is one thing I can cross off my life goal list now! :)

I own an owl, he lives on my phone, and his name is Moses!

I think he is ADORABLE.




Saturday, December 11, 2010

The Day of the Triffids

If plants did end up becoming sentient and murderous like they did in "Triffids".... I am totally going to be the first to die.

I just drowned my plants and its surrounding areas! I really don't know why I can take such a simple task of watering plants and fail so many times.

I'm getting plastic plants in the future. Plastic Cactus plants. Just in case.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Failure in a box.

So my exams killed and ate my brain today.

Exam must've gotten zombified.

Hmmm... I think I'll convert and do some vegetating tomorrow. Yay for zombies?

Feeling kinda Panda-like

OH my brain.

Rhizomes and Deconstruction and Feminism! You make me want to never think again.

I love to learn. I'm just lazy. Is that so bad?
ok...don't answer that.


Have I told you lately that I wanted to be a robot? And that I always wanted a robot servant/slave when I was a child?

Yeaah... back to studying.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Not a Necrophiliac

I crush on dead old men. That is so not normal.

On the other hand, it does make me more interested in what I'm studying. Oh, Foucault, Nietzsche, Napoleon and Beethoven... You complete some weird freaky part of me. I'm sure there's more dead crushes I have floating around but I can't keep track since most of Contemporary Theory and Philosophy consists of brilliant dead men.

Too bad they seem so pessimistic. And dead. But I think they all just need a hug.


Sunday, December 5, 2010

On a roll!

I'm intensely pleased with myself over school lately. I mean, I'm not doing stupendously, but I'm doing stable-y good. Like not-bad-at-all-but-not-great-but-awesome-in-terms-of-me good. So that's an upper in life.

Now I just need to figure out how to pick up myself in other parts of my life now.