Abnormal

Alternating between feeling apathetic and full of dread this week. I haven't completely caught up to real world yet and I'm in between "what-does-it-even-matter" and "oh-my-stomach-feels-so-queasy-and-scary".

It's that kind of dread where you wake up in the middle of the night wondering if you had a paper due the next day that you forgot and your stomach flip-flops even after you realize that the paper is due next week not tomorrow.

Or that hanging feeling you have while treading water but you're oh-so-tired and everything below you is so deep and dark, and could that possibly be something moving underneath yo--SHARK! feeling.

Ah, give me the life of the robot. My laziness knows no bounds.

Anyway, while I'm here to clear up thoughts, let me make some quick resolutions for this year.

1. Eat more healthily: more water! more fruits!
2. Think more carefully before I speak
3. Attempt more art

*I really should at least accomplish one of these in this year...

Wonderful felted things and other stuff

So... I did end up doing felting and therefore did accomplish a goal last year! Yay me! Except after 3 days of straight on felting my arm started getting all achey from nonstop stabbing. Therefore I have taken a long break from it. Anyway, these are the creations I have made:

Unfortunate mishap and Owl

 The first creation I made was the owl. It took me quite a while but it turned out decent, I think. The second one is that white anomaly beside the owl. He was an unfortunate mishap. I gave him away because I didn't feel like he could be properly loved by me. The squiggly on his face was supposed to be a mustache. It was supposed to save him from his odd ears, except now he looks even odder. Sadness...

The Gang

So these are some more of the felted creations I've made. The owl is still the same owl from above but I felt like he would make the picture look better since he's the most normal looking one. *sigh...

Pretty Cups!

Pretty cups that were really cheap and nice I got at the Micheal's Art store where I was hunting down felting materials. Unfortunately there was none to be found. I feel lied to by the Curry's art people who specifically told me that there would be felting materials at Micheal's! Now I feel as if they don't know their stuff. :( And you think they would! 

Mr. Pirate Parrot

And this is a Parrot I saw at my chiropractors. I fell in love with him instantly because he looked all lonely and bored. Now I want a Parrot! I'm so easily impressed and persuaded. 

Elementary my dear Watson!

Eating a Tomato, Lettuce and Ham sandwich and drinking apple juice. I feel like I'm in elementary again with a paper bag lunch. All I need is red jello to make this a time travel moment back into an overstuffed cafeteria on paper bag lunch day.

MMmmm, delicious nostalgia! :)

Growth

I am a Palindrome.

the big 22


cheers!

Rooted to the ground

Clarity

Two nights ago I had a great talk. It was good for me because I had let my mind go autopilot and stagnant for so long. I feel as if I have a new direction now, or a start of something better.

I've also had more urge to draw now which is also good because I haven't doodled for so long. I'm easily inspired, easily discouraged, easily pleased, easily disappointed... so at least right now I'm in a more positive mode of mind.

Here's hoping for a better year for all in the coming 2011!

Either/or

Been offered an ultimatum from my mother. She's so absurd sometimes that I wonder if I'm just dreaming or stuck in some weird parallel universe where bad drama tropes are used.

She just told my sister that she can't date until I do. Now my sister is both horrified and amused and is now in search of someone for me to the glee of both my parents.

I didn't know my father worried about me too.

Now I'm even more determined to die single just to be rebellious. It's annoying to have potential suitors brought up all the time and asked why I don't socialize or don't act a certain way.

Don't they understand the idea of introverts?