Uneasy

She frightens me because she thinks she's right.

and I'm afraid that she's wrong

and I don't know how to tell her that.

It sometimes makes me sick inside.

What I am

I'm proud of me this week. I'm doing much better in school than I thought.

But on the other hand, I am entirely lacking in other aspects of my life.

I think I worry my mother too much, and my lack of caring about myself makes me worried too.

But working up an effort to care makes me feel aggravated. Why can't I be the me now? It's not the healthiest me, but it's the most comfortable me that I've come to know.

Buy me a forest and a library and I'll love you forever. That's all I need.

but you know, without the bugs... and all. thanks.

Telepathy

I like it when she buys me bubble tea. I feel as if she read my mind. Or that I have the ability to secretly will her to do things.

like the time she bought me snacks even though I didn't ask.

but most especially the bubble tea.

it almost makes up for everything. almost.

Buy me, I'm easily bribed.

Childish

Feeling grumpy and incredibly selfish.

because I can act like I'm five if I want to.

AND I WILL.

>:(

My room is like a batch of sunshine. I love it. :)

Trapped

LOL,

on some days I'm so grungily dressed (in my pajamas: Extra large sweater with stains and torn sleeves and my multi-coloured bottoms) that I simply can't show myself when other people are over.

This creates the anxiety of having to pee and not being able to go out. It also makes me seem rude, but I'm just hermitting (that's like 75% of my personality).

I swear to you, some days I'm so wrapped up in my self-consciousness that I can make a blanket fort out of it.

OOhh, blanket fort. I like.

Another thing that squeaks.

My nails feel squeaky. It's creeping me out. Like nails on a chalkboard. But without the chalkboard, you know?

Same feeling I get from eating squeaking salad.

dislike.